Facing responsibility, it’s securing to be insecure. You are free to lay, wallowing in inertia. You are weightless. It can’t fall on you. Seems we often insinuate this soothing self doubt by practicing insincere self sleuthing. This is how we shelter ourselves from the thunderstorms of squirming that responsibility from closer to truth self-knowledge brews.
Responsibility is not scary just because of its demands, but it’s revealing nature. We are so terrified to be frauds. However, I’d rather risk stumbling than descending. I feel it is worse to lay too long than to rise too tall.
If you choose to face it, an approach may be to ask honest friends and family who you are. They may give you security, but watch for coddling. Another is to hold your weight, despite lacking security. Secure in the insecurity. This is courage. You are taking a risk, the risk of responsibility. You will need to balance. You may stumble but know you will not sink, you are grounded by the weight you carry.